It's still rainingThere's no chill and yet I shiver There's no flame and yet I burn I'm not sure what I'm afraid of And yet I'm trembling There's no storm yet I hear thunder. And I'm breathless, why I wonder? Weak one moment, Then the next I'm fine.
I feel as if I'm falling every time I close my eyes And flowing through my body Is a river of surprise. Feelings are awakening I hardly recognize as mine.
What are all these new sensations? What's the secret they reveal? I'm not sure I understand But I like the way I feel.
Oh, why is it that every time I close my eyes he's there? The water shining on his skin, The sunlight in his hair? And all the while I'm thinking things That I can never share with him.
I'm a bundle of confusion Yet it has a strange appeal. Did it all begin with him, And the way he makes me feel I like the way he makes me feel...
¶ 12:19 AM
"I let him run on, this papier-mache Mephistopheles, and it seemed to me that if I tried I could poke my forefinger through him, and find nothing inside but a little loose dirt, maybe." -Joseph Conrad